Just as I am finding solace these days I get ants attack! Seriously I don't even eat in my room so where do all these little ants come from??!

In other news, I am feeling all pumped up suddenly to be aware of how in control (or not) I am, of my life. I mean it is something you always think you know only you don't because it is so obvious.

Its like the times when I stare at myself at the mirror and think 'oh this is me. This is my face,' but the more I see my own face, the less I realized its mine. It is more of what others see me as, but not myself. You know what I mean? And all of sudden..BAM SLASH WHAM you realize that it is indeed you! So why the hell does it look so unfamiliar-your own face? Your own yellow-skinned, single-eyelid, button-nosed face.

So yeah it is like sudden realization of the power/lack of  power you have to control your life. And it freaking throw your mind away!! BAM SLASH WHAM! Like what? I am who I am? Yes you are! HAAHA! I am the master of my own world! Bow to me ants bow! (And they do...)