The last few weeks of absence was due to the ups and down (as any normal person would feel) . Strangely however, I am once again, unable to feel anything close to emotional. I am calm and serene. (SEE always at odd moments, I panic for all the wrong reasons, calm over important ones. (^o^)

In fact, it was only attending after the first open house of a Junior College then did I experience a tingly feeling of FEAR.

Most of my friends experience in my own words an inexplicable optimism towards JC. But not me.... I am somewhat insecure.

Making new friends. New environment. New studies. New topics. New teachers. New guy friends. New CCA. New routine! Need I say anymore?!?!! I am a "Timex watch in a digital age!". Basically I am a fossil fuel.....*curls up and hardened* :(((

I WILL NEVER GET USE TO IT ! I am certain! Honestly I am a pessimist. The future looks bleak for me... and us! Me is not as confident as you see. ArGH this is stressful! And its a different kind of stress to me! Like like a different awful flavoured ice-cream....or or a poorly designed fashion brand.

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Ok. Everything is going to be fine....

I haven't been blogging mainly because I was still in limbo state, unable to summarise my feelings yet for these days but now it is clear cut. My old friends.... I'm afraid we would lose contact too :( .

How?!

Hehehe actually the above was just a pathetic excuse.. I am busy watching more Family Outing episodes and ahem We Got Married! Especially after today youtube-marathoning in Shimin house,( Side track...miraculously, I am more updated about the Korean media than my usual self... maybe it got something to do with my extreme boredom and slight neighbour influence+ surrounding friends) I am addicted :P!

Totally not my style but can now emphasize with fangirls feelings. The dynamics of an idol group is meant for the youth :D. I should act my age! 17 !! Young and super pure!!! * Bounce bounce*

PUKES. Thankfully I still retain a bit of sanity and is now reading. Cleansing for the soul and mind. I am also currently quite outdated in turn of the fashion scene. Cannot! I am ruining myself!! Jazz music! Oh power on!

But anyway after watching so many Korean stars. I have another goal in life! Basically I think I'm a simple person. See:

Short term goal: Graduate from university with decent degree.

Long term goal: Nice private house having sea view.

Now I shall add another- go for plastic surgery after 23 years old.