My optimism from yesterday has dropped to an all time low after 2 papers today. It was horrifying. Both physics and amaths ( I worked like the old beat up Windows 95's speed ) GOSH! I want to puke. The problem wasn't really the papers but my stoned behaviour. I was like staring into the question for at least 2 min before digesting. I want to jump into a lake and never resurface.
I wished so. I realised I'm not somebody who let go very easily. The past mistakes I make always comes back at the oddest moments to frighten me and I have no idea why.
Plus basketball too~ yikes, I hope there is some improvement in my terrible throwing.
Alot of my old friends wished me happy birthday yesterday night which was quite a surreal moment for me.
There I was, checking my mail to get daily news and people whom I never talked to for over 4 years tells me SWEET SIXTEEN. Hmm, maybe its facebook or birthday's alarm, because I don't think without the help of such IT, people would actually remember. C'mon to be honest, I myself only remember my own birthday (DUH!) and Harry Potter's oh and maybe people whose birth date are close to mine :) But other than that, I see no importance of the birthday social protocol thing, its odd, I somewhat like and dislike it at the same time.
You see, on your birthday, you wake up feeling all magical ( at least for me), going to school NOTHING SEEMS TO BRING YOU DOWN no matter how monstrous the geography paper is gonna be. And then at the end of the day you settle down quietly, savouring you own happiness before closing your eyes and the next morning you opened them the magic is gone. (SAD HUH) but thats life I suppose.
We should keep in contact more, and not just on my birthday haha VALERIE, JOLENE, AND SALONI!! HAHAHA I REMEMBER ALL OF YOU! but then again without the birthday social protocol thingie, I don't think we would even have talked/ written on my wall at all. So that's the good thing about it.