Thursday, July 30, 2009 @ 7/30/2009 07:53:00 PM
I am feeling horrible today. After what happened in school made me left with mixed feelings. Well mostly negative feelings. It feels like all the teachers are rather edgy these days and I mean whose not? I myself sometimes think I might crack. But that's not the point, the point is that I am rather upset and irritated by my lack of good health now :( ITS QUITE HARD TO FEEL HAPPY WHEN YOU HAVE PLENTY OF INSECURITES. AND I HAVE PLENTY AND I'VE YET PICKED MYSELF UP AND THEY ARE HAUNTING ME! THE MOST TROUBLING IS THE CHINESE RESULTS I'M GETTING SOON...
Not only am I experiencing uneasiness in my mind but my throat feels almost unlike mine. I have the same problem every time and this stupid vicious cycle goes on. But the catch is I don't understand how it even started. C'mon I think I'm pretty cough health-conscious cough ok Wait. I am weight conscious which I think is almost the same.... but anyway because so I'm health conscious, I have confidence that I wont fall sick easily thus when I actually do, my body goes in denial mode. Long story short, I dont like DAWSON doctors, antibiotics and nightmares. Trust me they are all linked.
sigh after the lecture I gotten, I feel dead guilty and worried for the first, bewilderment and slightly perturbed by the second and almost close to tears by the last. I don't want to let her down! ROAR! I cant remember anything about their words though : legacy, time and undone homework were part of the fragments I can recall from it.
Oh at least something good came out from the shitty day today. Jasmine is lovable and has emotions! I think she surprised me at the oddest moments. Honestly as in I talked to most of my friends too and they are all equally supportive of working hard together and such but Jasmine was the most unexpected! I was simply shocked by her ways to console people works greater than expected :D I promise if I ever were mean to you again I-
All in all I agree we need to persevere and my last post seems more useful than ever!
SPREAD THE LOVE AND LETS MOVE ON!