throughthelookingglass
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To be honest there is nothing much about me worth knowing. I live in an island, enjoys being a photographer at times and dance like no one else business. Thats all. I can't think what to write for now so it just stays like this. Welcome to the little life of mine and lets try not to get utterly bored, shall we?

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We're all mad here


The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock
Friday, August 29, 2014 @ 8/29/2014 05:30:00 PM

Time for you and time for me,
And time yet for a hundred indecisions,
And for a hundred visions and revisions,
Before the taking of a toast and tea.
...
And indeed there will be time
To wonder, “Do I dare?” and, “Do I dare?”
Time to turn back and descend the stair,
With a bald spot in the middle of my hair—
...

Do I dare
Disturb the universe?
In a minute there is time
For decisions and revisions which a minute will reverse.

I am reassessing my dislike for Eliot. My prof described Prufrock (that is the persona of the above poem) as a procrastinating indecisive prick whom does not get anything done but spend time deciding what to do. I am more sympathetic of him for a very good reason. Time for you and time for me.
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Monday, August 25, 2014 @ 8/25/2014 09:53:00 PM

I found my dream team. Or at least, I think we are a dream team. Don't dare to say too much or I will curse it.
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completed post!
Thursday, August 21, 2014 @ 8/21/2014 11:33:00 PM

Because you're a sky, you're a sky
full of stars. Such a heavenly view
You're such a heavenly view.

- A Sky Full of Stars, Coldplay

Chris Martin can pull off anything. I am so enthralled :D Nothing much to blog about these days because life has fallen into a routine. Meeting so many new people in such a short span of time has made me dizzy. I want ramen and blackball desserts. I need to stop eating. I need to start sleeping and running. I really want to read "colourless". I NEED MORE TIME!

And Time (t) is very interesting. Taking this physics module on Einstein and the Principle of Relativity had really made me reconsider Time in a whole new perspective. Something about Time Dilation really made me go like WTF in my head. I need to re-read my notes before I can express it better. Equations sadly, don't clarify things for me.

I remembered I left things hanging on this post. HAHA the good thing about routine student life is meeting people to eat during breaks. The bad thing is the opportunity cost of not studying instead during breaks. The no good nor bad moment is the time I spend during lectures which I pay attention to and feel motivated to start studying. Ok wait change to good thing. I enjoy my lit lectures especially Thursdays and Fridays the most. Incidentally, my Thursdays are the most jammed pack ones.  No wait change it to bad because I have so little time to execute my studying so I end up feeling more stressed instead.

Finishing To the Lighthouse, my feelings are all jumbled up. It isn't a pleasant book. It is difficult to read ( i say this constantly because this is really the most striking thing about it for me...) and feels almost pointless to define. I wonder why Woolf committed suicide. Reading her work, I found her to be an incredibly brave women whom possessed razor sharp awareness of herself and the world(s) she lived in. I wonder why she and Plath had to die. While they did commit suicide, I really don't think they choose death. Nobody chooses death. Death chooses you. It doesn't make sense and yet, it isn't suppose to. Any rationalization is insufficient to prove anything because by then, you're already just a dead body.

So perhaps the question is not why did they die but why do anyone choose to live? Reason once again, deals with that of the rational mind so the answer, likewise, is incomplete (if you ask me).

I can only say that up till now, I feel like living. This is my only true answer. It is not the best answer. And until then, if I ever stop feeling this way, it is only right, in some bizarre logical approach, to consider ending it. I once regarded committing suicide like choosing a drink. I daresay my opinion hasn't change yet.

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Wednesday, August 20, 2014 @ 8/20/2014 09:43:00 PM

i am growing increasingly agitated.

Listening to my favourite Joy Division song 'Love Will Tear Us Apart" and thinking how it really make sense because only those things that you love can have the power to tear you apart hahaahha I hope I'm not pointing out a v.DUH point but the fact that "love will tear us apart...again" is very nicely played out in the song is what I utterly love about it especially the starting techno-electronic bit before they begin singing. I always replay that part alone.

So I'm agitated by my speed of reading and have move on to reading 2 books simultaneously now. I never like to do that because one gets all the different characters mix up and storylines too, but I really have no choice. 1 week almost down and I am still left with 11 books. Not very efficient I must say. And don't get me start about the compulsory readings of these readings hahah

UPDATE: Courtesy of 186Bf comments i meant to say reading 2 books concurrently. Needless to say,  I am no Xmen :D. Meanwhile, the wrong use of the word simultaneously also makes me reconsider and think about the relativity of simultaneity. If I am reading nearly as fast as the speed of light then absolute time does not count but instead, depending on my inertial reference frame and 186Bf's observations of my readings, it would have been impossible for both of us to perceive such an event from happening...?
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First week flash backs
Friday, August 15, 2014 @ 8/15/2014 03:57:00 PM

I am deliriously happy. 

I believe I met the real life embodiment of Professor McGonagall and Flitwick :D The first lecture of Romanticism was as expected, really intimidating -I cannot express how thankful I was to turn up early. My professor is a small but formidable looking person that talks at the speed of a bullet-train. She spent a short 10mins briefing us about the syllabus and then went straight into content. In an 1hr25mins we covered 66 out of 75slides and I was so dazed by the end of the lecture. Her ability to recite very long quotes is as impressive as her lack of tolerance for stupidity, laziness and tardiness which she highlighted throughout the lecture. 

20th Century Literature made me v.excited to start reading everything! HAHA I finished "To the Lighthouse" ( random note: half way through the Romanticism lec, she mentioned that unlike some of her colleagues, she isn't so nice to give books like this one. I didn't know whether to laugh or cry.) The two profs are the total opposite of each other. He is like a Big Friendly Giant (BFG) from the Road Dahl's children novel. I say this because he was worried for the late-comers when they couldn't find a seat!! HAHAHAH so cute! V.friendly prof :D I can see why my friend was gushing over him last semester. 

First lecture of 19th C was so boring! Yawn! I had trouble keeping myself awake because it felt like a history lesson. Then again, I rushed from the Science building and also nearly fell asleep while listening to Einstein's relativity concepts. This module is actually quite cool but I remembered gripping my chair when I heard that some "matrices and calculus" is required. I find the talk about Absolute Time and Space really intriguing and the prof is well, kinda like Leonard from the TBBT. I think it's because I woke up so bloody early for the Romanticism lecture(10-12) that by the 2-4 and 4-6 period, my brain cells felt so fried. 

NM1101E's first lecture was a total joke. The prof actually talked about Kim Kardashain's app and tried to link it to "Trans-Media". I felt like a senior though when I sat next to a freshie and explained tons of stuff to her (bidding, how I felt about most 1101e lectures and getting around school). However, once I confessed that I had to google how to reached the particular lecture theater we were at, she kind of gave me a you-kidding-me look and I think any thoughts of playing up the cool senior vibe evaporated. 


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It's here.
Tuesday, August 12, 2014 @ 8/12/2014 09:34:00 PM


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@ 8/12/2014 12:11:00 AM

Back to school!

I must resume my highly efficient mode to do more stuff :D when one door closes, another opens (though I did go banging on a few... 2/3 like Barney Stinston hahaha) so on the day I found out I wasn't going to be part of YEP INDIA was the day I got accepted to OCIP Cambodia LE. Once again, I don't feel anything has been taken away or given to me its all part of the Flow ~~

Just returned back from supper with a group of new people. So this must be how hall feels like...camp all over again :O I am v.exhausted mentally more than physically but i must finish the interview piece for my editor. Sighz pie.

Its really back to school blues because I left my ez link card in CLB while printing "To the Lighthouse" notes. Even when there was no one rushing me I am so scatterbrained. What nonsense is this right!?

Have to read read read tomorrow and ooh! have another dinner with new people plus tuition. I need to stop calling them new people.

Things to do:
-Arnold Matthew Poem
-Read North and South
-Read Lighthouse notes.
-Finish interview piece and bug the director for interview.
-Decorate room.
-Prepare for Romanticism or risk feeling stupid for Lecture1.
-Bid for tutorials.
-Get back ezlink card &top up to print more things.

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